When life give you lemons...

eat a cheeseburger! Ok I know that isnt how the saying goes but it is how my life goes. I have had a rough week. Partly due to some imbalances (hopefully addressed and taken care of) and mostly due to everything going wrong around me. When it gets like this I get quiet. I want to keep my blog happy most days so I tend to just not write when tough days get tougher. I have felt inadequate lately, not crafty enough, not a good enough artist, not a good enough mom, not a good enough sister/friend/neighbor, the list could go on for days. Today though I finally am forcing myself to snap out of it. Life sucks some days but if you focus on only that you will miss all the good stuff worth living for.

So there you have it all, rough patch has come and gone. Cant wait to get back to normal and hopefully posting more about my crazy kids and my crafts gone wrong!

Tis Life

This has been life lately. Trying to dodge a goofy three year old with a paint brush full of paint. Messy, life has been messy. I have a feeling for awhile photos will be abundant and words will be few around here. I just dont have the energy to think lately. I hate being so boring!

An open book

Most people, who know me, know I am pretty much an open book. Feelings are not hid well, you can read them pretty easily on my face. These last two months have been the hardest two months of my life to date. My MIL moved in and the cultural differences, age difference, and life experiences led to nothing but head butting. I was raised not to raise my voice or speak back to my elders. Everyday was a test of these teachings. I learned patience, humility, and faith.

When the decision was made that our living situation was not working out and that my MIL needed to move out things did not end well. Horrible things were said to me which basically comes down to I am not good enough, and never will be good enough for her son.

As a mother of both a girl and a boy I already know that I will be very critical of the person who wants to have my child’s heart that I held for so long. But I know that from this situation unless that person is physically or mentally ruining my child my feelings are better left not said. I also now will be able to support Leila if she has to deal with the same situation. And I know now for Kenson that to try and wedge myself into a relationship will do nothing but hurt our relationship.

All in all it was a messy situation; one I hope happened for a reason that I will find out later on in life. One I don’t wish upon anyone else. It bruised my spirit and I have been working this last week to rebuild it. It has really questioned who I am as a mother, wife, and daughter. I can only grow from this and that is what I intend to do.

Blogging to Blog

If every work day could be laying on the floor in my PJs my life would be complete. I am having issues lately. I want to blog but I feel like I dont have a lot to say. And really I havent been able to make anything lately except so "adorable you could eat them" kids (my opinion entirely). Things are changing though and boy do I have some stories to tell once the words come to me and I am ready to share (nothing terribly exciting, but life in general that I think it is important to share). So for a while if you arent a kid person, sorry its all about the kids. Consider yourself warned.